noncommittal

no training today. i just got home from a long day at work. dad's surgery is tomorrow morning. he goes in at 9am. they take out the golf ball in his neck. the brother has the first shift~ sleeping over my parents place and taking them to the hospital. the sister has the second shift~ stay with mom during procedure. i have the closing shift~ pick them up. take them home and make sure they're okay. i say "they" because my mom is a wreck... more so than my dad.

seems like the more people i speak with have a personal connection with cancer. wives, parents, aunts, friends, co-workers... not to mention other health issues. it sucks, and i feel like there is more that i can do.

if you know me, then you know that i'm very noncommittal. i rsvp as "maybe" and will not give a definite answer until the last possible moment. i can't even write in my planner with a pen. i use a pencil, and if that's not available, i put it on a post it... just in case. but i feel like i'm not doing everything i can to train for this run. as i said previously, i've got thursday - sunday down. it's monday - wednesday that is the problem... so today, i made another commitment.

the first commitment was to raise money for the leukemia lymphoma society.
http://pages.teamintraining.org/sf/kauai10/atsutaoka

the second commitment was to "commit to get fit." it's basically a 10 week program. once a week with a personal trainer. same day. same time. no cancellations. no rescheduling. no refunds. it sounds harsh, but that's to keep me on schedule.

i'm not in bad shape. my current fitness schedule including my kickboxing classes on tuesday & thursday get me moving. but i have plateaued. my arch is blistered. my knee is hurting. so i need more strengthening and core work. i do not have the disposable income and if i don't raise the money that i committed to, then i'm paying the difference of the $5,000 that i don't raise. but i need this. this is for me and my health. maybe it'll help inspire others to be healthy too.

busy day tomorrow:
run. home. work. hospital. work. parents. teach. parents. home.
will let you know how it goes...